How am I going to be a mother? Don’t get me wrong, I am very excited about it. However, there are a few things that concern me…
1. John has to remind me to eat. He is constantly asking me, “What did you have for (breakfast/lunch/dinner)?” or pleading with me to eat something when I just don’t feel like it.
How am I going to feed a baby every 2, 4, 6 hours if I can’t even remember to feed myself 3 meals?
2. I can’t get myself out of bed to get to work on time. Most days I can, I suppose, but I’m not happy about it. I stay in bed until the last possible minute and sometimes I am late to work. As long as I get my 40 hours a week, it’s okay, but that’s not the point.
How am I going to get myself out of bed to take care of a baby in the middle of the night when I can’t even get out of bed to get to work on time?
3. When plans change, I like to think I “go with the flow”, but I really don’t. I get upset about it, then get over it. I like to have a plan and anticipate any changes and make arrangement for those potential changes, but I don’t like it when something I haven’t planned for comes up or if I have to fall back to plan B (or C, D, E, etc)
How can I anticipate changes with children? You never know what a child is going to do/say/feel. “Sorry mom, we can’t come, little Queen is being fussy. Yeah, I know it’s our birthday week, but it’s just not going to happen…”
I know freak outs are normal. I mean, I’ve never been a mom before. Obviously I have no idea what I’m doing. But it’s scary.